I needed a reminder last night. It’s something that I’ve known, but my heart has refused to believe it about myself for quite sometime. Maybe I’ve never really believed it. I used to think that God loves me because I am valuable; that I have some hidden innate value so therefore God has to love me. Some years back my thinking shifted somewhat and I began to realize that I am only valuable because God loves me. God determines my value and loves me anyway. He is not forced to love me. He chooses it; often when I don’t deserve and even when I am running in the opposite direction.
I have not felt very valuable lately. In fact I have felt quite the opposite. I have felt needy, neglected, ignored, dismissed and often condescended to. I was reminded by a close friend last night of how God really sees me. And the beauty of this truth caused the tears to run freely because deep in my heart I like playing emo. I like being in the dark and throwing myself a pity party. I was reminded of the verse from Proverbs 31:10 “Who can find a woman of worth, for her price is far above rubies.” Rubies are expensive. The median international price for rubies * (rated with a quality of “exceptional”…and why not, God’s not stingy) is $6,150 per carat. There are approximately 141.7 carats to an ounce. There are 16 ounces to a lb. A lb of rubies is about $13,943,280. Do the math for yourself ladies. Pound for pound I am worth (in the ruby sense) upwards of $1,742,910,000. Yowza.
As a shout out to all those occupying Wall Street , standing up against the 1% (I wholeheartedly support your rights), your value to God already puts you far ahead of the game. Granted this is a metaphor, but it gives me an idea in a highly economic culture, that my value is FAR above rubies. It’s time I started believing that.
So put on your ruby slippers and remember you are a daughter of a King. And if you don’t feel valued, remind yourself that you ARE loved and that your worth is FAR above rubies. Even God says so 🙂