Wolf at Heart

I have been looking for steady work for almost a year now, and it’s starting to feel impossible.  Money is tight. Tighter than it has been since I graduated from high school. Groceries even seem like an unworkable expense.  I’ve been in a bit of a funk at the ever growing pile of bills (unopened mail that is now reaching about 10 inches high).  Vet appointment for a dog who may have a tumor.  Upcoming tuition charges.  Health insurance.  Car insurance.  Gas.  Cigarettes and coffee (I still seem to think these need to be part of my monthly budget).  The list goes on.  And yet the only thing on my mind is how to pay for a Halloween costume.  Ridiculous is not a strong enough word for the amount of time I have already invested…in a costume, when I could use the time studying.

So I have spent the last two nights pouring over websites trying to find a costume and or accessories that I can justify as an actual expense.  And then I stumbled across these.  I want one.  I mean I really really want one.  Like a kid at Christmas lusting over the ridiculously overpriced toy.  Its at the point that if I suddenly inherited millions of dollars, I would probably buy three of them.  Unnecessary…yes.  But secretly wishing I had $120 dollars to blow on something this cool but completely superfluous…again, YES.  Don’t worry, I found a cheaper alternative; but in my heart, I really want to be a wolf .  Someday I might fold and buy the real thing.  But for now, I will have to remain a wolf at heart and be satisfied that no costume, or lack of, is going to change that.

Wolf at Heart


4 thoughts on “Wolf at Heart

  1. BlueGem says:

    Hmm, I certainly understand your plight. I pray you’ll get a job soon… just keep hunting (no pun intended 🙂 I like your sense of humor… Stay positive and things will definitely turn around for you.

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